我最快乐的那一年有你，你最快乐的那一年会有我么？

You will never know how I miss you!

You will never know I am crying when you said sth. very easily.

You will never know...

Never...

I am just rabbish!

The happiest year!

很多时候，我很无力，我也很苍白，也很无奈。

祝你幸福！

Today my friend told me she got a tumour in her body. Frankly, I was so surprised cause in my memories, she is very healthy.

Anyway, such is life.

I want pray for this girl.

I hope it will be carcinoid after the final checking on this Friday.

She helped me a lot when I was not in Shanghai. She sent me a lot of things I want.

She said she was too unlucky cause this problem and she threw up today and she worried whether the reason is this tumour or not. I really hope not because of that but because of her psychological react.

What a fucking life it is. The god is unfair as i told Stefanie. I will remember what you said. But see, what did the life make fun with us?

What should we do?

Anyway, I pray for you, my dear friend.

I will not give up the living right again, you should be strong!!!

小刘，坚强点！你还欠我些东西呢，回来一定要健健康康地还给我。我们都不知道生活将在哪里静止。我所能做的只能为你祈祷。发自一个朋友的内心。

也许，我们都会对生命有重新的定义。也许，我不会再有放弃生存权利的想法！

 

 

 

I wanna have a dog which will never leave me alone.

I wanna have a dog which will take care of me even she was sick.

I wanna have a dog which will steal the bread for me when I was poor.

I wanna have a dog which will follow with me even she was nearly blind.

I wanna have a dog which will hug me when I feel sad.

I wanna have a dog which will kiss me when I cried.

I wanna have a dog which will never die.

I wanna have a dog which could accompany me when I was a child.

I wanna have a dog which will share the foods I have.

I wanna have a dog which could enjoy the happiness with me.

I wanna have a dog which could beside me when I feel lonely.

I wanna have a dog which will never leave me alone.Never.

 

I will treat you very well.

I will hug you often.

I will kiss you.

I will take care of you when you got sick.

 

You will never know, I do not want you go away at all.

 

 

原谅

原谅把你带走的雨天　在突然醒来的黑夜
发现我终于没有　再流泪

原谅被你带走的永远　时钟就快要走到明天
痛会随着时间　好一点

那些日子你会不会舍不得　思念就像关不紧的门
空气里有幸福的灰尘

否则为何闭上眼睛的时候　那么疼
谁都别说　让我一个人躲一躲
你的承诺　我竟没怀疑过

反反覆覆　要不是当初的温柔
毕竟是我爱的人　我能够怪你什么

原谅把你带走的雨天　在渐渐模糊的窗前
每个人最后都要　说再见

原谅被你带走的永远　微笑着容易过一天
也许是我已经　老了一点

否则为何闭上眼睛的时候　又全都想起了
谁都别说　让我一个人躲一躲
你的承诺　我竟没怀疑过

反反覆覆　要不是当初深深爱过
我试着恨你　却想起你的笑容

---"Do you remember the time we spent together?Even just a moment? I think maybe not cause I am not the only person in your mind, or maybe I have been out of your memories long before.You will never know until now you are the only one in my mind.Yes, you will never know how ... I am."

---"Yes, I know what your feelings are!I know"

---"You really know that?"

---"Yes, I think I know."

Who asked and who answered!Maybe both are me. Maybe both are you. I do not know.I am totally confused.

Leave me alone, in fact, I am always be alone.

Maybe I do not want to be alone at all. Yes, maybe.

Should I cry or not?!Or you should recall something.Yes, maybe.

Should I or should you?

In the world of polar bear, there is no last, no sad of love, just tolerance. Poor bear baby just left the world. A strong male bear ate him.

The most terrible animal in the world is human beings. They will hurt anything if they want no matter how close they were in the past.I feel shame!Or you feel guilty.

 

Shit!I feel uncomfortable for several days because of my stomach.

I always be late for the class.I am still using the same way on my master study here as I was in Shanghai. Shit. I lost myself in the first mid-term exam. Unfortunately when i told my roommate I just finished the half reading before the exam and I only could answered at most half questions, I feel no shame! I am fucking a ass hole maybe...I could find a lot of bull shit excuses for not studying well.Anyway, I do not care a lot just like telling a funny story of the others.

BTW, my little roommate said I am looking like Garfield, am I?maybe...

I took the whole unit and I live in a smaller bedroom, the most important is I am the landlord of this unit. I am free doing anything in my place.That is my place not like renting a room with an expensive price from others' places.

She said the way I walk and the way I smile are the same as Garfield, maybe another important reason is my smiliar body shape with Garfield...I always be looked as some cats!Frankly, I do not like cats, I like dogs.

What am I fucking talking about?!

Calm down!

I am fine, I will be back to Shanghai maybe in the middle of June. I miss you so much... Ok, stop talking about that, otherwise, I will feel fucking sad.

My god, so many "fuckings", thanx to "THE L WORD", you let me know how to put so many "fuckings" in my sentence. Definitely, you let me know many things. "laughing, losing, fucking, crying..."

What i wrote is totally fucking bull shit.Why I use English? Because I do not want someone read it!!!

Ok, good night, Sydney, good night, Shanghai!Maybe good afternoon to another city!

See you guys in short time!

I hope I could be real Garfield. Be loved by his friends forever!

Say goodbye to Siddhi, say goodbye to Arnick, I love you so much, my little girl! You are too cute. Although Siddhi will never see this, I want to say thanx to you. Thank you for giving me "HD" because of my "active" in the class. Thanx to Lesley because you let me know your own story. Trust me, everyone has his own sad story, we are the same. You are not alone. I will visit you someday, I am sure.

Thanx to the local lecturers, you let me know how poor is my listening. Your amazing accents just let me wanna go to the hell...

Ok, Garfield is coming...